Love can be so full of pain without you realizing the JOY you've lost. You take love for granted and you don’t nature it the way it needs to be natured and before you know it, love is fading or lost. Where you ever really in love? If the answer is yes and its fading you must be a giant of a fool like me. They say to have loved and lost is better than to never have loved at all. I say that person is crazy and love is crazy at times. When you make mistakes and so much time has gone by and the trust is gone what do you? You get angry, you cry, you can even get violent and then you say no that's not me, no more. You say I want it to be fixed but at that very moment there is nothing you can do, what do you do? I'm not saying I got violent I just can't bring myself to put my hands on her though many I've spoken with said they would've strangled her for the things they just herd me say. What would you do, how would you feel if your man or woman had control of all the money, gambled it away and blamed you for all the problems in the relationship. What would you do as a man to have never raised your hand against her, never stayed out all night, never cheated and your wife of 22 years and she does that to you. 

I'm not boasting, a quarter million gone in five years and you both worked, where did all the money go. Why has she done and said the things she has to you. Do you now start beating her? Do you get revenge? How do you mend a broken heart, I know sounds like that song doesn't it. You get all kinds of practical advice on what and how to do, what they think you should, but it doesn't fix it, it doesn't stop the pain or give you all the lost years. It feels like someone dyeing, I'm dying!

I don't know what to do except To stand on my religious faith and have hope for a better tomorrow. Please respond, what would you do?